sevenhelz

agh, i've forgotten how to type.
ooh! hedda gabler is on at the playhouse (liverpool) in march! fantastic!

so sister spent the weekend at our house, and it was blissful in a gluten free type way. we talked and stuffs. also, she bought me stuff online which should magically appear on wednesday (but didnt you want some money off dad toward that?) :) twas nice. she also came to the brass explosion on friday in brightly coloured wooly hair and purple velvet boots, which were well received.
i got the directors award this year. woot.

brother stephen is now here, because he is illb. poor stephen. pats. he better not breathe on me. i was ill most of the weekend, which rather dampened the whole family visits thing (did i mention that auntie jan and grandma p turned up on friday too?) as i couldnt take the noise. why are all the women in our family so very loud?

it's crossed my mind lately that even when i feel like i've been productive, i tend to be doing the productive stuff at steve's house - last week i started cleaning his bathroom (coz it was filthy and i didnt want to wash there, let alone have the two year old running around) and today we did about a months (or it felt like it) washing up, and shopped a bit. this had the pleasant side effect of me actually having a decent meal before work, hence still being awake now. anyway, this all makes me feel quite positive, but my parents see none of it... also sister mentioned that mum might not realise some of the displeasure at my seeing steve is that it leaves her alone in the house all the time. she can't get out on her own that much so it must be quite lonely... this had occurred to me but it's possible she doesn't see it as part of the problem between us. i don't mean to abandon her. i don't mean to ignore all the housework here, although generally when i'm actually at home i'm knackered from work. at least lately. this may have something to do with the illbness i had, which seemed to bring on random spells of feeling completely unable to move. which kept annoying the people around me as they thought i was saying i was tired to get out of doing something, or something.

anyway lots of thoughts in my head again. it's a nice feeling at the moment seeing as i've been so sluggish for so long. it's all still very confusing but i suppose that's life and relationships and christmas. and so on.
in other news, i have £12.01 to last me until the 30th of this month, and there are a few key xmas presents i'm missing. sorry mr_s_face, morecake (because i at least want to donate to something), hathy_col and dizzydora (i'm sure there are others too) - i will get you something extra nice, but it will be late. and sister will get something else too. at some point.

i think in the new year i might start looking for another band. also, i desperately need to get university applications done. if it's still allowed. erk.

oh look, i remembered how to type. yay.
xx