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sevenhelz at 11:15am on 26/01/2009
sevenhelz at 11:15am on 26/01/2009So last week I finally got back into the uni groove. Something just clicked, like a light went on, I wonder how many more cliches/light-related similes/metaphors I can pack into this sentence? I stepped away from the darkness in my head.... yeah I'm out.
ANYhoo, that was simultaneously a ways into a period of my being really busy and spending hardly any time in the house, and the week that I didn't take Cilest (my anti-baby hormone tablet). Since Saturday, when I have had both time at home and tablets, I have been in a really shitty mood. To the point that tiny things like being hugged too hard really annoy me. I mean, yeah, my back's not great at the moment, it kinda hurts, but I'm not even getting the "ah sweet" feeling when I'm released.
So I don't know whether this annoyance is purely situational, mostly hormonal, or a combination of the two. If it's purely situational, clearly something in my home life needs to change. If it's purely hormonal, I probably need to switch pills again. I haven't had much of a sex drive lately either, which may or may not be related. And behind the third door, our super special prize, if it's a combination of the two, I probably need to overhaul my home life as well as switching pills.
So.
#1. Hormonal contraception is so fun and so easy and so convenient and once you go on it (after having had yourself and partner(s) checked for diseases of course) sexual relations are just so easy!
#2. I could go to sympathetic woman doctor and talk to her about my mood. When I did this with otherwise good male doctor he moved quickly on. Woman doctor suggested I come to her about it, first time we met - which was during the whole progestogen-only debacle, and yes, I nearly cried in her office.
#3. I could go to my partner and try to talk seriously about the things that are annoying me and how realistic this feeling that I have most of the burden of housework is, and how I felt when he took me to task for not doing things around the house when I'd been out of it most of the week. This seems like the grown-up option. Deal with stuff head-on, and if he won't engage with that, then try something else.
ANYhoo, that was simultaneously a ways into a period of my being really busy and spending hardly any time in the house, and the week that I didn't take Cilest (my anti-baby hormone tablet). Since Saturday, when I have had both time at home and tablets, I have been in a really shitty mood. To the point that tiny things like being hugged too hard really annoy me. I mean, yeah, my back's not great at the moment, it kinda hurts, but I'm not even getting the "ah sweet" feeling when I'm released.
So I don't know whether this annoyance is purely situational, mostly hormonal, or a combination of the two. If it's purely situational, clearly something in my home life needs to change. If it's purely hormonal, I probably need to switch pills again. I haven't had much of a sex drive lately either, which may or may not be related. And behind the third door, our super special prize, if it's a combination of the two, I probably need to overhaul my home life as well as switching pills.
So.
#1. Hormonal contraception is so fun and so easy and so convenient and once you go on it (after having had yourself and partner(s) checked for diseases of course) sexual relations are just so easy!
#2. I could go to sympathetic woman doctor and talk to her about my mood. When I did this with otherwise good male doctor he moved quickly on. Woman doctor suggested I come to her about it, first time we met - which was during the whole progestogen-only debacle, and yes, I nearly cried in her office.
#3. I could go to my partner and try to talk seriously about the things that are annoying me and how realistic this feeling that I have most of the burden of housework is, and how I felt when he took me to task for not doing things around the house when I'd been out of it most of the week. This seems like the grown-up option. Deal with stuff head-on, and if he won't engage with that, then try something else.